i thought am already 100% sure i still want another baby, may it be a girl or another boy, and was glad that jude is 100% in support of my plan since he only wanted two kids, UNTIL our camiguin trip and i saw how convenient for us to travel with just two tots--one kid held by jude and one kid carried by me.
yeah, i know it sounds shallow and selfish... but don't we all think of what's the best for our family? and for my own, we see ourselves happiest when we travel no matter how tiring or expensive it is. even inigo loves to travel and at his age, he already has his own set of dream destinations and that includes russia and brazil; while jude and i both dream that the whole family can go backpacking in nepal or bhutan. am quite sure my boys will love that idea... but, what if we have a girl?
our love for traveling is just one thing. it's the financial security we're more concerned of. jude will already turn 40 years old few more years from now and while other dads his age are already sending their kids to high school or college, we're still sending our kids to preschool and elementary. he has to work harder now if he wants to retire earlier than 60 years old as we're still sending kids to school. so imagine the financial impact if we're sending three kids instead of only two?
lastly, the mommy (that's me!) still wants to go back to the corporate world--earn her own money and enjoy the fulfillment a corporate job brings. theo is already is already two years old now... one, two... or three more years and he's not that dependent on me anymore. i can already consider applying for a job again. but what if there's another little tot clinging to me? then i'd wait another three or four more years... ah! i'd rather forget about going back to work if that's the case because definitely no company will employ a 40 year old woman who had almost a decade of hiatus from a corporate job.
but having said all the drawbacks of having a third child, i know when it's given to us we will welcome him/her with all gladness. we will surely made him/her feel that we love him/her as much as we love his/her older brothers. i'm also sure that kuya inigo and kuya theo will be doting big brothers as even now they are already praying to Papa Jesus that He gives our family another baby, a baby sister to be exact. so i think that answers my concern... i leave it to Him... que sara sara. :)
yeah, i know it sounds shallow and selfish... but don't we all think of what's the best for our family? and for my own, we see ourselves happiest when we travel no matter how tiring or expensive it is. even inigo loves to travel and at his age, he already has his own set of dream destinations and that includes russia and brazil; while jude and i both dream that the whole family can go backpacking in nepal or bhutan. am quite sure my boys will love that idea... but, what if we have a girl?
our love for traveling is just one thing. it's the financial security we're more concerned of. jude will already turn 40 years old few more years from now and while other dads his age are already sending their kids to high school or college, we're still sending our kids to preschool and elementary. he has to work harder now if he wants to retire earlier than 60 years old as we're still sending kids to school. so imagine the financial impact if we're sending three kids instead of only two?
lastly, the mommy (that's me!) still wants to go back to the corporate world--earn her own money and enjoy the fulfillment a corporate job brings. theo is already is already two years old now... one, two... or three more years and he's not that dependent on me anymore. i can already consider applying for a job again. but what if there's another little tot clinging to me? then i'd wait another three or four more years... ah! i'd rather forget about going back to work if that's the case because definitely no company will employ a 40 year old woman who had almost a decade of hiatus from a corporate job.
but having said all the drawbacks of having a third child, i know when it's given to us we will welcome him/her with all gladness. we will surely made him/her feel that we love him/her as much as we love his/her older brothers. i'm also sure that kuya inigo and kuya theo will be doting big brothers as even now they are already praying to Papa Jesus that He gives our family another baby, a baby sister to be exact. so i think that answers my concern... i leave it to Him... que sara sara. :)
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